I always thought it when I was little. Why would she hit me but not my sister or my brothers (none of whom I speak to now). Why did she not praise me when I achieved something, even now? What is it about me that she must hate so much to treat me like I'm shit?
Having DD, I was very worried I would turn out like her. When I get angry, I feel like I am her, and it scares me. I wouldn't hit my DD, I know I would never do such a thing, but when I get angry, I'm scared I'm too much like my mum.
But even now as an adult, about to hit the 30s in fact, she still seems to hate me so much. When she was in hospital, she told my sister that she didn't want me to know cos she thought I wouldn't care (had wrote about that at the time under a different name). But over the last few days, I'm just so angry with her.
I picked DD up from hers a couple of days ago. It's very rare I have DD go to my mum's, and this has all too much reminded me as to why! When I was there, she was saying about how she would like to have DD again. Well I said she would see DD on Sunday when we all come round for dinner. She said it's not the same because I'm there and ruin their time together. I don't even want to go to my mum's for Easter! But I felt sorry for her as she'll be on her own, so we were just gonna go over for a meal.
Then DD told me when we were at home, they had gone to the cinema. She asked my mum if she could call me and ask if I wanted to come with them. She said no to this. DD got very upset because of it.
It also transpires tonight that my mum has been filling DD's head with horrible thoughts and comments about me. DD called me lazy and said I don't do anything with her, despite having taken her to cinema and out for lunch today, and then we went into London yesterday and had lunch out as well, and then night before we had pizza and watched a couple of films together etc. I asked her to tell me when she means, as to why she was saying I don't do anything, and she said something like "oh fine, you have been doing lots of things with me, but granny says you don't." It also turns out that my mum has told DD to ignore me when I tell DD to do something she doesn't want to do or if I tell her off.
I'm just flabbergasted at this. I can't believe she would dare say these things to DD!! I mean really I shouldn't be that surprised, but maybe I'm just stupid. So in the morning, I'm going to ring her up, tell her we're not coming round Sunday and exactly why I'm cancelling. Not really looking for advice, just somewhere to vent and kick myself for being so stupid.
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So my mum seems to hate me...
Bear1984 · 20/04/2011 22:12
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