Long time MNer although only recently ventured into posting. NC for this as very aware of my own failings as part of this whole problem. None of this makes me a good example of a parent.
I now dread every weekend as it means a concentration of time with my 10yo who has become increasingly uncontrollable and is quite simply wreaking havoc. Neither DP or me know how to handle it. As I write, he has made a 'weapon' out of Lego inside socks, and is threatening to swing it at the cat to hurt it while DP tries to talk sense into him. His own refusal to go on a (totally children-oriented) family trip today, and our attempts to persuade him, resulted in anything he could pick up being thrown at us, kicking and hitting at us, repeatedly kicking a glass door trying to break it. We actually resorted to taking away all of his shoes, to stop him from kicking at the glass anymore.
If it wasn't the trip today it would have been something else. This kind of thing happens every day now, usually him refusing to get ready for bed, do homework, take a shower, have dinner - basically he seems to deliberately pick an argument. We can't get him to calm down in his room or away from us - he refuses to go there, or if we try to walk away he runs after us hitting and kicking, or uses deliberate and increasingly provocative behaviour (poking us with things, putting toys or other things right in front of our faces, trying to break furniture or fittings). Ignoring the various things he does at these times is impossible because he's so provocatively in our faces. I'm ashamed to say that we do resort to using our physical strength, as sometimes we have to simply hold him for up to an hour for him to calm down enough without continuing to hit, bite or otherwise try to hurt us. And although I never, ever wanted to be this kind of parent, I have also spanked.
All of this only happens with DP and me, which makes me feel that we are not dealing with a particular condition, as he appears to be able to choose when he is like this. If the carrot (benefit to him, nice treat bribe) is significant enough, he is able to completely refrain for days; conversely, it seems to make no difference when we confiscate things - and we do that by first giving him a warning so he has a chance to stop before he loses out, or a choice that if he continues, a proposed punishment will increase (e.g. He currently has a complete tech ban for four weeks - because of escalating behaviour like this another day). I don't believe in rewarding negative behaviour so he has missed out on good things - as have we - again with warnings first- when he has behaved like this. I try to talk calmly and rationally to him once an incident has passed - he says all the 'right things' but seems to forget it all in a matter of hours when he picks the next fight.
I sought help from the school (some months ago) who referred him to CAHMS suggesting he should be screened for Aspergers, but CAHMS didn't see any behaviour that suggested this. I recently found a counsellor and he has had one session but I'm not yet convinced that this is going to be successful as the counsellor is not asking me enough about what we are experiencing with him, and is focusing too much on a family bereavement - but this all started way before the bereavement. He is otherwise a very articulate boy, friendly and has friends, although not not that motivated academically, but I don't have my joyful boy anymore.
However DP and I are far from blameless. We have our own relationship issues and I suspect we will probably separate: I can't deny that the tension between us does affect the general atmosphere from time to time. I have considerable anxiety and stress (unrelated other issues) and can be very shouty and short tempered. Reading MN also makes me worry that I myself might be an emotional abuser, I am certainly someone that finds it hard not to be in control. I once called a Parenting charity asking for help for me and all they seemed able to do was to be a 'listening ear' on a call. I'm ashamed of my parenting.
Sorry for this long post but even though it's not an AIBU I'm still very scared of being flamed and don't want to be accused of drip feeding. This is the first time I've actually verbalised some of this as I'm so ashamed. But I'm now desperate and have no idea how to help my son anymore.
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OIDespair · 05/06/2016 18:30
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