Hi all,
Sorry for the long post and I'm not sure if I'm posting in the right place but I need to voice this even if I don't ask for any advice.
My first DC was born at 34+4 by emergency csection under general anaesthetic as I had HELLP which is a nasty variation of pre-eclampsia that I'd never heard of! I had no symptoms and it was only picked up in a routine midwife appointment.
The hospital and staff were all fantastic but it was terrifying during the hospital admission and the countdown to the section but I kind of spaced out thinking of only my baby's safety and didn't really think of what could have happened to me. I could have died and didn't see my child for almost 3 torturous days because of all the drips I was hooked into. If I'm honest with myself, the first 2-3 months were hell as I didn't feel ready in any way to be a mum so quickly and in the way I did, breastfeeding wasn't working and I'm 100% sure looking back now that I was thoroughly depressed.
This was over 18 months ago now and I'm starting to feel really broody and have always said I'd want a sibling for my baby but I'm terrified it'll happen again and that maybe I won't be so lucky this time around. Also, I adore my child and I'm worried that our relationship will be negatively effected by the addition of another baby and the potential depression that might come again, let alone the inevitable hospital stay that would come with another section (the hospital have already told me that if I have another then I'll need another section).
Does anyone have any experience of HELLP and subsequent pregnancies? Or even just any advice on the way having another child changed your relationship with your other children. I'm going to try and speak to a specialist to discuss my anxieties about it happening again but would be grateful for any sanity checks anyone can offer me 😊
Thanks xx
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