Hello
I had my daughter 10 weeks early, the placenta failed and her growth stopped. She was 2lb 9. After 6 weeks in hospital we came home.
Things have been very difficult. She has severe reflux with many chocking episodes. She never slept only on me for the first 20 weeks we were home. Even now she only naps on me in the day she won't go down. She's very needy and demanding but we have adjusted to her and we love her to bits.
The feelings and guilt around what happened, no one knows why it happened are huge.
The loss I feel for the pregnancy I didn't have, the baby I couldn't take home straight away, I felt robbed but always very grafetful as things could be so much worse.
I look at others and I don't resent them but I still think even now she's nearly 8 months old what we missed out on.
Things are very stressful, I feel like I worry constantly about milestones and development and what appointments we have.
I'm wondering if anyone had counselling or something to deal with how they felt and if they felt like this.
I love being a mum, she has made our lives so complete but I guess I'm mourning the "perfect ending" we didn't get if that makes sense, I'm not really sure what I feel or how I feel.
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Nutcaserugby · 05/02/2018 21:14
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