Recovery

[ahsudb]

It's been almost a year since I had to have an abortion, I wasnt mentally or financially stable enough for a baby. No where to live and addicted to drugs. Since then I have been clean. But I don't know how to cope with it.
Its almost been a year and I'm struggling more and more everyday. I know I made the right decision but I hate my self so much for it! I can't sleep, when I do I have Nightmares. I can't be around kids which is difficult when all my friends have babies. I've been suicidal, and have PTSD from it
How do I get through this?

[deardeardiary]

I had counselling and from my own personal experience it did not help me. However I went to my GP and was put on some antidepressants and although I was against depending on medication to make me feel better it really did and it improved my mood and motivation overall. I know it's not for everyone but I had to suggest as it helped me so much. I really hope you feel better soon, although you will always have sad moments time is a great healer and you just have to give yourself time and remember to be kind to yourself. The guilt is such a weight to carry but I found distracting myself as much as possible helped me along the way. It's been 5 years since mine and although it broke my heart I did make the right decision and you did too for you at that time. You're in my thoughts x

[ahsudb]

Thank you, i am on antidepressants but none seem to be helping me at the minute xx

[deardeardiary]

You can ask your GP to increase your dose and see how that goes. I asked mine to do the same xx

[Farmerswifey12]

You definately need to go back to your GP and be as honest as possible about how you're feeling