Had a positive test yesterday morning. Will be 4 weeks exactly.
Absolutely distraught. I am already suffering from PND (DS2 is 10 months), PTSD from his birth, severe health anxiety and a chronic pain issue that I am undergoing a number of tests for.
I'm absolutely petrified, and just want this to be over. I don't know what will happen, or how it will happen, or which option to choose. I just want this to be over. Im terrified of a surgical procedure but after having a PPH I'm also terrified of the medical route too.
I'm booked in for a consultation on Monday at my local NhS hospital. If I went somewhere like BPAS would the wait be less? Am I likely to wait longer for a surgical?
Despite knowing I can't continue this, I'm absolutely gutted. It's a decision I never thought I'd have to make (we use protection and DP is booked in for a vasectomy) yet here I am. We tried for months for DS2 so this just seems like such a cruel twist of fate and I feel like the most awful person in the world. There's so many women that would do anything to be in my position and here I am just wanting it to be over.
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NC15 · 18/09/2018 07:19
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