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PissySugarPuffs Sat 16-Jun-18 19:33:55

This is pretty long, but I just need to write it all down as I feel like I'm in shock right now.

I had e medical termination on 17th May. Had all the pills on the same day and passed (what I thought) was the whole pregnancy later that night.

I then proceeded to bleed for the next three weeks. Some days it was like a heavy period, some days it tapered right off. I also had some terrible cramps but I thought this was considered to be normal, so just tried to get on with things.

I then took a pregnancy test three weeks later which showed a strong positive. I was rescanned at the clinic and told I had retained products and to take another dose of the pills but that it was only a little bit and it shouldn't be as bad as the first time around.

Later that evening I began to bleed - gushing blood and passing clots the size of my hand, every 30 mins for about two hours. Then it was every 10 mins, then every five.....this went on for about three hours. I have never seen so much blood in my life.

At this point I was feeling so faint, I called 111 who sent an ambulance and was taken to A&E. I continued to gush blood and clots, still showing a positive pregnancy and was admitted to the gynaecology ward who kept me in overnight.

By this point I had passed 17 of these enormous clots and god knows how much blood. By the next morning, it had slowed to almost nothing, like a tap had just been turned off? It was so strange but the doctors said they were confident that everything had probably passed and sent me home.

I still continued to bleed, but it was again like a normal period. Then suddenly, two days ago, I started bleeding heavily again and started losing more enormous clots. My partner was able to drive me to A&E and as we arrived and I stood up, I felt this massive gush and clots just shooting out of me. I managed to waddle to the toilet where I had another huge loss and it went all over the floor. By this point I was pretty much hyperventilating and thought I was going to pass out.

They again admitted me to A&E and started me on TXA tablets to try and stop the bleeding. I was sent back to the gynaecology ward who told me that this time they would scan me to see exactly what was left, which they did and again, there was retained tissue.

So, two medical abortions had essentially failed and I was then told I would need an ERPOC surgery to remove everything.

I had the surgery and then spent another night in hospital with my blood pressure going as low as 90/50. Doctor said he was confident it had all been removed and that should be the end of it.

I feel so traumatised by all of this and although I am no longer bleeding, for the first time in over a month, I am so paranoid that I am still bleeding from my uterus but that it's just pooling inside me and I will start gushing blood and clots again at any second. I'm also having bad cramps.

Has anyone else been through something similar? Did it finally work? I feel like I've had three terminations in the last month and I'm just petrified that there is something wrong with my uterus and I'm going to start bleeding again.

Thanks if you got this far

Elsi3 Tue 19-Jun-18 12:42:12

Oh gosh you poor, poor thing.

You are probably still in a lot of shock, have you now been discharged from hospital? Do you have someone with you?

Sunshineworshipper Tue 19-Jun-18 20:53:13

@pissysugarpuffs I'm so sorry to read all this. I know you'll be feeling very lousy at the mo! I went through a very similar experience earlier this year but I had a surgical! They didn't do it properly and I had a massive bleed 4 weeks later and 60% was still inside. I needed a second surgery. I was distraught. I've basically not recovered I've ended up on anti anxiety meds and still have flashbacks of the bleeding incident.

You will def be in shock! If you're feeling uneasy tell whomever you're with, talk about it as much as you need to. I find getting it all off your chest helps. No matter how painful it is. You will have days where you're okay then days where you visualise it all and feel upset.

When you start your period after it, it is nerve wracking as you'll be worried you will be bleeding badly again. sad. I ended up with an infection too so make sure you get swabs or a check up done in a few weeks.

My post has probably not helped but just to let you know someone knows how you feel.

BrutusMcDogface Tue 19-Jun-18 20:57:17

Oh you poor thing sad it's not the nicest of things to have to go through at the best of times, and for it to go so wrong for you is just horrific.

I'd be worried that you might get some kind of stress or anxiety related to the trauma and it's going to take a while to "get over it". Can you talk to your gp about maybe being referred for talking therapy or something? Apologies if I'm way off the mark but it sounds like you're really suffering flowers

BrutusMcDogface Tue 19-Jun-18 20:59:42

Oh and you could become anaemic with such a massive blood loss. Look after yourself.

PissySugarPuffs Tue 19-Jun-18 21:55:25

Thanks for the replies and sorry to hear you've been through similar sunshine sad

Ive actually kept checking back on my post over the last few days and saw I had no replies! I though the perhaps people thought I was making up, one of those who posts about how horrendous termination is etc.

It was for me but most definitely real.

I definitely feel in shock and I'm so scared that I'm going to start haemorrhaging again. The surgeons were very confident that they had got rid of it all but I'm still so scared.

The bleeding has pretty much stopped now but I'm still cramping. Is that normal?

Oh and I'm also anaemic now too so having lots of dizzy spells.

I just feel so distraught that what was already a tough decision, turned into something so horrific. I hope I can move on from this and yes I'm absolutely dreading my first period.

My family and friends don't know anything about it, so I can't talk to anyone. I had to go through all of it alone and that was so hard. Especially when the nurses and doctors kept asking me if I had anyone coming in to be with me sad

Sunshineworshipper Tue 19-Jun-18 22:36:29

@pissysugarpuffs aww you poor soul, I can't believe you did this alone. You've done amazing to go through that ordeal alone. Everyone who knew me could not believe what I was going through to be honest. They said it was like a horror story. Sadly before these procedures you aren't fully warned of such risks. It's terrible. I had my termination for medical reasons and thought it would be relatively safe.

It would be worthwhile talking to someone. I hope you're on iron now for the anemia. Take care of yourself flowers

PissySugarPuffs Tue 19-Jun-18 22:56:36

Mine was not a termination for medical reasons, hence nobody knows about it. I do have a child but for a multitude of reasons, I just didn't want more and the pregnancy was very unexpected. I was using contraception which failed sad

I couldn't tell friends or family for fear of judgement. But I'm petrified that they will find out if I have any more complications. It's a miracle that I've been able to keep everything quiet thus far.

PissySugarPuffs Tue 19-Jun-18 23:04:23

Thank you for your kind words Sunny. I appreciate it x

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