Shit. Am pregnant due to contraceptive failure with my live in boyfriend. Use an app that alerted me... peed on a stick to confirm and its worked out i'm 4+2 so caught early.
Am still married though have been formally separated from DH for a year, but we dragged on a bit for a few years on off before that seeing other people. We have an infant school child together.
Am also mentally ill and under care of community mental health team (hardly see due to staff shortages and a series of fuck ups). Have several other health problems/disabilities. take a ton of meds, have cervical abnormalities due to active HPV. Not a healthy bunny. I have been unable to work for past year and on a long waiting list for intensive therapy. Money is super tight.
Boyfriend (who is a lovely supportive guy with a good full time job) has said he'd prefer I terminated as i'm married, but he's happy to support me whatever I choose.
I feel a bit dead inside and trapped - either way this is going to cause a lot of crap feelings. I never thought i'd consider an abortion, but i don't think i could go it alone and feel shame about the circumstances, let alone whether my health problems would cause abnormalities or problems for the child or make my issues worse. I'm just about managing to stay afloat as it is - but not sure I could forgive myself if i went through with a termination - and worried if that will make my mental health nose dive - not sure I could cope with a new baby either.
There's so much fear for me with either choice i'm not sure how i'm meant to figure out what I want.
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duffed · 10/04/2018 14:05
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