And it's really taken its toll on me. My head is just fucked. It's just something that I never in a billion years thought I would go through and I still struggle to accept that I have had one. I look back and think what came over me? I wasn't "me" when I did it because the real me would never have done it.
I know FIVE people who are due babies around the same time as my baby would have been due. All I can think of is that I am going to go through life thinking my child would have been their child's age, my child would have been starting school like theirs etc...
At the moment I just see a very bleak future.
It's heartbreaking because this time last year I was a completely different person. I was so happy and I had high hopes for the future. I was excited about many things. Now I just feel a constant emptiness that never goes away no matter what I do.
I don't really know why I'm posting this. Sometimes it's just good to get it all out and talk.
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Topaz89 · 10/02/2018 19:27
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