Abortion

[dazedandconfuse]

I'm 20 years old, at university and have a part time job. I also have a 3 year old son. I had a boyfriend this past year but a month ago he left me saying he's not ready to settle down with me and my son as he's too young and would rather party and live the single life. Fair enough I guess just don't know why he wasted so much time with us. Anyway, I also found out just before he left me that I'm pregnant. I'm currently 12 weeks, booked in for an abortion a week today and terrified about it. I really do not want to go through with it. But how will I support two kids and how is it fair to bring a child into the world who's father wants nothing to do with it. I have no idea what to do. If I go through with the termination I'm going to be completely scarred for life but if I keep the baby am I ruining my 3 YO, a new child and my own life?? I have no idea what to do. If my boyfriend hadn't left me I wouldn't have to think twice about keeping it. I just don't know if I'm being irresponsible raising two kids alone. My ex messages me constantly and says he loves me too which doesn't help the situation, he also gets upset when I talk to him about the abortion. I feel like I've been left completely alone to deal with this situation and he just crops up when he feels like it. I love my ex a lot and we always said if I did end up pregnant we'd keep it because together we were financially stable enough and could have joint childcare responsibilities so we could continue to work and study. But everything is tits up now. I have no idea what to do.

[misslost]

Dont terminate unless ur 10000% sure. Do u have a close friend or understanding parent to talk to?