Considering an abortion

[Leigh67890]

Hello, I already have two children 5 and 10month. Recently just found out I am pregnant, my first thought was "I don't want this, I can't do this, I can't keep it".
Straight away I phone the clinic and arranged my consultation and termination for the same day, baring in mind that's only if it can be done that day by medical abortion or not.

The more I'm thinking about it, the less sure I am about whether that is the right choice for me, will I regret the abortion? Could I live with knowing I aborted my child? My friend is due to have a baby late this year, will it bring back what ifs, and imagining what my child would look like?

My relationship isn't the best, currently breaking up, we've not been getting on since the baby was born really, due to him not stepping up to the plate and doing things a dad should be doing or making any effort to help me.

So then there's my next question; would I cope with a 6 year old, 1 year old and a newborn on my own, with no support at home, just me and my children?

I've coped perfectly fine with two so far, good day and nighttime routines, household routine etc... everything is going very well so far being a single parent to two children.
Would I copbe financially, emotionally and physically with three children on my own though? That's my biggest worry.

Any advice would be more than helpful.