Apologies in advance for the long post. I need to get it all out
I found out yesterday that I'm pregnant. I'm 45 and this was unplanned. I have a DS who just turned 4. I'm struggling to decide what to do.
Last week before I tested I could tell I was pregnant but I was so scared I would try to convince myself maybe I was not. I was having panic attacks. I cried and cried and cried.
Thoughts that run through my head:
How could I ever love a second child as much as I love my son?
Now that he is 4 life started to be more manageable, can I go back and do it all again? I would be almost 50 by the time things start to settle again
I really do not think I can cope.
Will my husband be supportive this time around? Will he pull his weigh?
Will it be too much for our relationship (which has been downhill for a long time now)?
As you can see all my first thoughts were against it. But now I am crying thinking this is my last chance. To have another baby in my arms, to feel the smell of a newborn. To give my son a sibling. To have a 'complete' family.
I really do not know what to do. I want all this to be a bad dream.
I know no one can make the decision for me, but I just do not know how to even start thinking about it.
On top of everything I had a bad argument with DH tonight. Yesterday he was all ' we'll get through this whatever we decide' today he was cold and argumentative, ended up leaving in a huff and I am here sitting alone at 2am.
I am devastated
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kosh71 · 30/03/2016 02:04
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