He is fun and passionate and handsome but somewhat cruel and definitely not in love with me.
I am 6 weeks pregnant (he is definitely the father) and I don't know what to do. I have always been pro-choice but that isn't a choice I can imagine myself making now that it's real. I am 34. I don't have any excuses. I think this baby will be utterly beautiful.
The man I love already has several children and a hugely busy job. He is fervently anti-abortion but I can't see him even acknowledging this situation.
My husband wants to have a child. I can almost imagine him accepting someone else's baby. But that's a monstrous thing to even imagine. I am going to have to get divorced and live alone with this baby. The anticipation of responsibility is crushing. I am already so tired.
My parents will disown me. Us.
I feel so bleak. I know that I deserve to feel that way. I'm sorry for writing this and fouling up your Sunday evenings when other people have terrible problems they didn't create for themselves. I really appreciate you listening (even if your only response is to berate me).
I also know that this sounds massively egocentric and that I need to consider the fact that another person will exist at the end of this thanks to my stupid behaviour. I can't decide whether it is less selfish to have an abortion, even though it will break my heart, or to be alone and make the best of it.
If anyone has a magic wand that would be really brilliant.
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erisj81 · 18/10/2015 20:40
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