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Im a single mum of 4...age 15-5 and found out im expecting twins...the dad dont want the babies and has harassed me to get an abortion...I want to keep them but I am so scared of doing it alone, and im scared to go through the baby phase..sleepless nights..teething...endless crying and nappy changes...I have mental health problems that I have only just got under control. I am terrified...I dont want to lose these babies it breaks my heart to imagine them gone..makes me feel so crule and horrible and selfish...so the way I see it is I cant win...ill feel awful keeping them and awful giving them up to an abortion..the dad told me im ruining his life keeping them..he is on a brink of a breakdown over it. Obviously it was never ment to happen..I was on cerazette pop pill...and apparently a lot of people get pregnant on that pill?. I would have to make the abortion look like a miscarriage...but how? And id have to go through it alone...the dad wont be about to go with me...but I guess I deserve to feel alone and go through it alone as punishment for having the abortion.