I want to get excited, and I am... but this has been ruined forever and I can't see me ever really relaxing.

[OracleInaCoracle]

ok, so got a bfp on thursday morning and Im shitting myself (not literally, obviously) theres no real reason for me to, i have no pains/backache/niggles the way i have done with ALL of my mc's. i feel sick and tired (god, how I love that feeling - every retch makes me smile) and my hair is glorious, tummy v bloated and glamour-girl breats (as when pg with ds) but i am aware that tomorrow I dont call the gp to arrange to see the mw, instead I call the clinic to arrange a scan. Im not allowed to lift a thing, in fact im surprised dh hasnt banned me from breathing tbh im so grateful to be up-duffed, especially since we have just been turned down for IVF and were on last cycle of clomid, but i feel a tiny bit bitter that i cant enjoy it and am unable to relax and/or start telling people.

i want to shriek "I'm pregnant (love typing that) I'm not barren, dont have shitty eggs" but i cant because we are so far from the end of the tunnel that the light is just a speck.

please god, let this one stick.

[barbiebigpants]

congrats lissie i totally understand where you are coming from i had a mmc last year and am probably the most paranoid pregnant person ever!

I have had 5 scans already and im only 17 weeks
Just take one day at a time...soon they will add up and before you know it you will be seeing the lo at the 12 week scan

Wishing you all the luck in the world

[PortBlacksandResident]

Oh Wow Lissie....i WILL say congratulations. I have everything crossed for you.

Take it easy!

x

[Tortoise]

Wishing you lots of luck.

[QuietlyTTC]

great news lissie

[OracleInaCoracle]

thanks, cant even look up edd. all i know is that t'will be end of may! part of me is relieved that they will be taking such good care of me, but part of me hates that i cant just be a normal woman iykwim

[spicemonster]

Wow - that is great new. Congratulations! You will relax probably - eventually.

But right now you're a lot closer to being a mum again than you were yesterday

[LadyStealthPolarBear]

Wow lissie, congratulations
Don't lift a thing, but have something chocolatey to celebrate!

[OracleInaCoracle]

exactly spicemonster, said to dh earlier "i'm more pregnant today than i was yesterday and every hour that passes is a minor victory" he has promised that as soon as we have the 6w scan we can tell people (mc at 6w) and i can have anything i want for myself and this baby. just want it though.

[LadyStealthPolarBear]

wow, your DH sounds more excited than you - if that's possible

[Flower3545]

Super news lissie, many congratulations

As someone has already said take one day at a time and allow yourself to be cosseted whenever possible.

I'm loving that "every retch makes me smile" anyone who has had a mis will know exactly what you mean.

Wishing you a happy healthy pregnancy

[differentID]

at this stage lissie, every hour is great for you.
I am praying that this little acorn grows into the mighty oak you want it to.
Hoping that you can smile at your scans, each and every time. x

[OracleInaCoracle]

i know!! i dont think either of us expected to get here without intervention. i am however on full knicker-checking alert have a fair bit of cm (normal i know) and keep having urge to check myself in wildly inappropriate places such as debenhams at 12pm on a sunday

[OracleInaCoracle]

i didnt btw!

[LilRedWG]

x

[mmrsceptic]

good luck lissie and congratulations

have been there too, grinning and vomiting

don't feel said that you can't relax, it's nothing really, just take care of yourself and let yourself be taken care of

all the best

[LilRedWG]

DH and I are both very very happy for you.

[MayorNaze]

everything crossed for you babe know how much it means to you

[OracleInaCoracle]

thank you all so much, i don't know what to say!!

[RustyBear]

lissie - really lovely news, keeping my fingers crossed for you

[BecauseImWorthIt]

Many congratulations. I think every woman who has had a mc will know how you feel.

Here's sending you every possible good vibe!

[OracleInaCoracle]

aw, am getting all emotional now!!

dh has taken ds out for a bit so i can rest, so am lying on sofa with laptop eating mini cookies. bliss.

[CarGirl]

Hope this one makes it lissie.

[cece]

sticky thoughts