Yes yes, I know.
26+5 with my first (A little boy ) and I kinda got to thinking, "Oh Christ, he's got to come out!". I keep hearing all these statistics on various shows / from books about how younger mothers are more likely to tear / have a premature birth / insert scary aspect of birth HERE. Plus the fact that I'm rather small, with a low pain threshold due to my ME, and it all bundles together into a nicely wrapped package of panic.
I know its going to hurt and I'm not really frightened of it - well I am, but not of the pain itself, if that makes sense. I'm worried about how my body and my mind will react to it, worried that they'll stop working in co-operation with each other.
I keep imagining that all of a sudden one day reasonably close - too soon - my waters will break, and that everything will go horribly wrong, I won't be preapred, I won't be at the hospital... I think my most recent image I was in a toilet at Tesco's where my phone gets no reception
THEN I worry that I'll be overdue and will have to be induced.
And THEN I worry that people were right and I'm going to be a bad mum because of my age and illness
Some days I wake up and look in the mirror and couldn't be happier, seeing my belly grow, and feeling him wiggling away. Other days I can't even look in the mirror and want to just mutter, "Its not happening, its not happening, its not happening!" for hours.
Is anyone ever trully ready to be a mum? I'm trying to comfort myself by thinking no; even people that plan for years, prepare for years, can never really appriciate what they've let themselves in for before the baby actually arrives. But still, I worry I'm not ready.
Everyone I've spoken to has said that giving birth is the most intensive pain they've ever felt, and the quickest forgotten - would you say this is true?
I know first time labour is generally longer than others, and part of me is worried - especially with the staff shortages - of being in labour for like 24hrs or something. Or worse, because they're short on staff and rooms, they make me have a CS.
Are all these worries normal for a first timer, or am I being a worry wort??
UGH sorry everyone, and thank you to those that take the time to read and reply. Just all seems very very scary right now.
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ErikaMaye · 14/08/2009 00:37
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