Hi everyone
Sorry in advance for the long post. I'm a bit scared writing this, but I'm just hoping someone out there has felt the same and might be able to offer a bit of advice or encouragement. I feel as though I'm sinking into a bit of a bad mental state and feeling sad about something that is actually really wonderful.
I'm currently pregnant with my first baby, still early at 9 weeks. This is a very wanted pregnancy, we tried for a while and had some tests that implied we might need IVF, so it was a very welcome surprise when we conceived naturally.
However... I'm now feeling quite down in the dumps. I think it's partially hormones, but I'm also quite anxious about how much this is going to change my life. I've worked really hard at my career and that's likely to be affected (I work in an industry that is contract based and very inflexible about hours). I've also enjoyed a life of travelling and quite a lot of freedom which is going to be hard to give up. Any tips or encouragement on travelling with babies/small children would be fantastic!
My fiance and I have been together 3 years and a year of that has been spent in lockdown, so not able to do much or go anywhere, and I really wish we'd had more time just the two of us to have adventures and holidays. We're getting married in June, the third date we've had planned, and I just can't seem to get excited about it anymore. The last year has just taken the joy out of it and I can't be bothered planning favours and flowers yet again.
One of my best friends just had a baby and is having an extremely hard time with it, especially the feeding and recovery from the birth. Right now it doesn't sound very appealing...
I'm 36, so we felt we needed to get on with having a family, but maybe I'm the sort of person who'd never really feel ready. I guess there's never a perfect time and I expect a lot of this is a mix of hormones and lockdown blues. I'm just feeling shit.
I also know that I'm extremely lucky. I have a wonderful partner, a comfortable life and hopefully a baby on the way which we thought might not come easily. I don't know why I'm feeling like this and it's starting to scare me a bit. I've asked for a referral to the pregnancy mental health service but it's taking a while to come through.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Get updates on how your baby develops, your body changes, and what you can expect during each week of your pregnancy by signing up to the Mumsnet Pregnancy Newsletters.
Pregnancy
Planned and wanted pregnancy but feeling worried and a little trapped
21 replies
Floryella · 19/04/2021 15:25
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.