Please be kind, I am really struggling.
I am 5 weeks pregnant - we had been trying for a while and I had resigned myself to not having another. But then there you go.
We already have a 5 year old who is the light of our lives. And life is at the moment pretty easy. We all get enough sleep, our 5yo is a hilarious delight and we are happy.
Why am I jeopardising it with another baby?
I have such a dread something will go wrong - that they will have a serious illness or serious disability. I think about it all the time. I am terrified of the future due to coronavirus - should have used protection but thought it couldn't happen. I am also very obese - BMI is 38 - and terrified my weight is going to cause them to have a disability or something wrong or harm them.
I know there are never any guarantees in life. I know something could happen to my 5 year old and we would cope ok. But I am wondering why the hell we are wilfully taking the risk. We wanted our child to have a sibling. But now I'm pregnant I feel so anxious and sometimes just very ambivalent.
Can anyone relate? Will I feel any better?
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LondonAfterMidnight · 19/05/2020 23:08
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