Just feel shit really. All of a sudden being forced to realise I don't have much time left before my baby arrives and just don't know how il function. I have a 2 year old, this baby is to the same dad but he's done one so it's just me, alone with 2 children.
I have a nice life with my current only child and worry about things like not loving this one as much. I feel guilty like I'm betraying my daughter by giving up our one on one relationship.
Our bedtime routine is put DC1 in bed, hold hands until asleep. How will I do that with a newborn? How will i leave the house, with 2 babies in tow? How will I take the bin out with them both? Sounds silly but it's a serious question, I currently do it when DC1 is in bed at night, I can't leave a newborn in the house alone? How will I see to DC1 if she wakes in the night? What if DC2 cries while I'm seeing to DC1. I don't want to leave DC1 because the baby needs me. How will I make her breakfast when i have a newborn to see to?
I just have the overwhelming feeling of "it's too hard, I don't want to have to do it" and then the immense guilt that comes with this feeling. If I could go back in time I would probably terminate, but it's too late now. I know I'm a horrible person so please don't tell me. I just don't know what to do
dont suggest I speak to a GP or MW or councillor as i won't
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Changedmynameo · 23/01/2018 12:28
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