I've posted on here a few times over the last few months about my on going headache with choosing between a VBAC and Elective C Section.
Well, today is the day that I have my final Consultant appointment in which I'm supposed to have come to a decision regarding which route to take.
I've gone back and forth SO many times between a VBAC and Elective. When I first discovered I was pregnant, VBAC was the only birthing option I wanted to take. After a few months of cooking this bub, fear, anxiety and worry crept in and I'd started settling more towards a c section.
The last few weeks, I've been so set on the idea that we're having another section that I've been telling family members to expect to be given a date soon.
But now that the day is here for me to give my final word, I feel like I'm right back to square one again.
Logically, it's better for me to have an elective. Our first child turned one only a few days ago and I'm due in 3 weeks. I didn't dilate at all last time around after almost three days in labour with copious amount of inducing interventions. I've never had a vaginal birth. All of these things suggest my chance of success with a VBAC is significantly lower than the projected 70% that we're all told.
I'm also beyond terrified of rupturing and just know that should I try and labour naturally, rupturing is all I'll be thinking about and I'll be so completely consumed by the fear that that'll probably slow my labour and result in me needing medical intervention again.
I know a c section is the right option for me and I don't want to 'try' labour again only for it to result in another emergency c section, as last time I felt like the biggest failure for months which brought on PND.
But I still can't shake the feeling I'm going to regret my choice.
Not sure what responses I'm looking for here, if anyone's been in this situation or something similar and can tell me these feelings are normal, I guess that would be good.
I'm just scared and feeling a little deflated. I always thought being able to choose how this baby was born would be great, but honestly, I'd much rather have a medical professional tell me how to give birth and not ultimately leave the decision with me.
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AutumnLeavesandCandleLights · 13/12/2017 09:41
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