Can pregnant women ever be happy (light hearted)

[Bisset80]

Hey all,
Just signed up today, and reading through some threads and was wondering can us pregnant women ever be happy!!

I had my first child nearly ten year ago (I'm 37) I didn't find out until I was 6 months gone that I was pregnant (long story) and basically from the moment I found out everything that could go wrong did, I had psd couldn't walk, couldn't sit, couldn't lie down!! 😂 didn't help that I also broke my toes!! I had the most horrendous heartburn (my daughter came out bald and didn't grow hair till she was 1)

Fast forward to January this year and I found out I was 5 weeks pregnant and then boom was hit with antenatal depression!! Was massively exhausted, could barely move, would drag myself to do the school run, then straight back home to bed then dragged myself to go get my daughter make her tea then back in bed for 7pm, refused to see my partner for 4 weeks as I couldn't bare the thought of being near him (even though I knew I loved him and didn't want to split up) and my God when it came to taking my bra off!!! The worst pain I've ever felt in my life, my boobs were so sore and tender I would cry!!
When I went for my 12 week scan I started to pick up seeing my son I started to feel the bond (which I never felt before during my pregnancy)
Then the worst thing happened I was nearly 16 weeks and went into early labour, nothing could be done I was in slow labour for two days and gave birth to my angel baby who died in my arms, I blamed my self for a long time, it was my fault as I didn't accept the pregnancy straight away. I thought I had an incompetent womb, after investigations found out it wasn't me it was 'just one of those things'

Fast forward again just found out I'm 5+5 pregnant!! And I don't feel a thing!! As in no symptoms, no sore boobs, no morning sickness, no aches and pains and most importantly no depression!! Like I am far from complaining believe me haha but I don't feel pregnant, I'm loving it but also feeling weird that I don't even have tender boobs!! I keep grabbing them to see if there is even a twinge, but na, there is nothing!!

So again I'll ask can we ever be happy 😊 😊 😊