Abortion help

[user1498328647]

Hello, I'm new too all of this and I just need some advice as nothing seems to be becoming clearer in my head.. I found out I was pregnant 5 weeks ago and a scan has shown I'm 9 weeks. I'm 20 years old and I have a 14 month old. I currently still live at home with my parents and I don't drive, I do work but I'm not where I want to be in life physically or financially. I'm still with my boys dad but we don't have the best relationship so we decided 6 months ago to live Separately. I had an abortion booked in on Friday and I couldn't go through with it, I bring up my little boy basically on my own and I wanted to build a better life for him before I had any more children but stupidly I fell pregnant again. I'm so stuck as I would love nothing more to have this baby but either way I feel selfish for either getting rid of it as it's my own fault I'm in this mess or selfish for keeping it and it not having the best circumstances and whether mentally I'd cope with 2 babies under 2. I do have support from family but I know that people won't be happy if I do keep it. I can't think about anything else and I really don't know what to do, I've got another abortion booked in for Wednesday and Thursday and nothing is becoming clearer in my mind :( advice please ? Xx

[OlennasWimple]

[Flowers]

Please get some RL counselling

[Hollmaebrown]

I always said if I was over 10 weeks morally I'd never be able to do it and il be 9 weeks 6 days on Wednesday when the first day for the abortion is.. I can feel flutters and tiny movements already so I would feel disgusted with myself but I need to do what's right for that little baby and I don't know what that is x

[mysecret321]

You will never regret having a baby but you may regret undergoing an abortion...You have time don't rush into things you will not be able to take back...

[Hollmaebrown]

That is very true, I'd never regret the baby itself but I think I would regret the timing as I don't have a lot to offer the babies, I was waiting until my little boy starts walking then was going to put him in nursery a few hours a week to go and pursue education further to build better for him, I'd never thought I would ever have an abortion I just wish my circumstances were a lot better so I could give them better.. it's the hardest and worst choice I've ever had to consider x

[differentnameforthis]

PLEASE do not say that you never regret having a baby...people can and do regret it. It's not great advice.

Op, you do sound like some counselling will help. It isn't always an easy decision to make, but you do sound torn.

Much love

[HariboFrenzy]

No advice as such, but a friend of mine was in a difficult position when she discovered her husband was having an affair and then found out she was pregnant with her second child. Her mum said to her, "Do you want your first child to have a sibling? Or are you happy to have an only child?" In my friends case she had always intended to have a second child, so she went ahead. It hasn't been easy but she is happy with her decision, and the youngest starts school in September and she will start a nursing degree in January.

It's a very personal decision. I wish you happiness whatever you decide