unplanned pregnancy no 4!!

[bex666666]

anyone in my situation, I'm so worried about being pregnant ive taken two tests faint lines so I think that's a positive!

cutting a long story short my husband and I have been using condoms but had a slip up where we had none left twice! and used the pull out method (even though we both new that was a risk)

now I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant! we tried to get the morning after pill second time but the pharmacist would not prescribe it to me as we had two risks apart and she said if I was already pregnant it could harm my baby, I came out with a sence of relief as deep down I know I didn't want to take it, she recommended I go to family planning on the Monday but I didn't again telling me I may have wanted it.

now I'm really scared of a number of things, my heads saying abort and my hearts saying keep

I have three kids already
not a lot of money
we private rent as cant afford our own home and will be over crowded
I'm scared of giving birth
I'm scared I will die in labour
I'm worried my other children age 14,8,5 will hate me as I wont have much time for them
I feel I'm too old

ive never felt this way before my first was an unplanned pregnancy I was only 16 but made the decision to keep him I new what I wanted then! but I'm finding it hard this time, how could I abort this one when I don't regret keeping my first. I don't think I could look at my kids knowing I had aborted there little brother or sister.

I'm married now and 30 years old I have a work from home job and in an overall better position than I was when I had my first.

I think I'm suffering from anxiety starting way before I was pregnant ! I really don't know how I feel , my husband is excited and says one more will not make any difference, I know he will be supportive but I'm just so scared
anyone else feel like this?

[jellycat12]

I'm in the same boat as you but I'm 7 weeks my heads saying abort but heart saying keep I kept my first I was 16 to and I don't regret a thing thinking of you x

[Justmadeperfectflapjacks]

I had first at 17 and last at 43.
Going from 3-4 wasn't hard. .
There is a 6 year gap between last 2 and ds is chuffed to be a big bro!!
Congratulations!!
You will have all day with baby while dc at school then can focus on them when they get in!!
Sounds like number 4 was meant to be!!

[bex666666]

thankyou for your reply glad I'm not alone

[bex666666]

I will have a 6 year age gap too! in fact if I have my calculations right the baby is due on the same day my youngest was due what are the odds of that?

[Leavesandburies]

Hi, me too. I'm just about to ring to cancel my coil fitting I've been waiting 4 months for. Feeling absolutely horrified, I keep welling up in shock. I'll have a 4, 3 and just gone 2 yr old when this one arrives. I work full time and the last 6months I've been so thrilled to finally feel human again after years of solid pregnancies and newborns. I'm in the middle of setting up a new business I've be so excited about. I get such awful awful morning sickness, I don't know how I'll cope.

I'm horrified.