I am posting in the hope I'm not alone! I have posted a similar post over the last month, but need further support with this as I'm driving myself and DH crazy!
I am a size 16, and 19 weeks pregnant with DC2. I've always been a size 12-14. And actually got my myself down to a size 12 and healthy BMI before TTC again 2 years ago. Then we had 4 MC's over 18 months. Through all of that the weight gradually piled on. I was trying to lose it when I fell pregnant sooner than expected with this one and hadn't got very far with the weight loss. On top of that, I had a hideous first trimester, terrible nausea only relieved by constant grazing and carb cravings. And so I'm a size 16, larger than I've ever been and feeling like a whale.
My bump is there, I can feel it nice and hard, but it's hidden by my flabby belly and horrible top bump that overshadows it. I just look fat and frumpy and feel so unattractive. A lady at work is due the same day as me, and has a lovely slim figure and neat obvious bump. perhaps mine wouldn't be getting me down so much if I didn't have her to compare too, but i really have been feeling very self conscious about how I look.
I've tried to eat healthy now morning sickness gone, and it's going well. I'm feeling better for it but obviously not really losing weight nor is that the intention I suppose, but I want to help my weight and not let it spiral. I'm really worried about gestational diabetes and problems in labour etc. I considered slimming world but have been unable to make the classes as I've been so tired after work full time and looking after DS. I'm making a conscious effort to walk more, taking up Pilates and trying to do more physically. But basically, I'm beating myself up about not being in better shape, not being able to do more about it, and looking so fat and frumpy and feeling uncomfortable in my clothes.
I don't really know what I'm after; I guess to hear others in the same position. Everywhere I look I see slim pregnant women with lovely bumps and feel I'm the only one who 'let myself go' and let the pregnancy/baby down. If I do have a treat (a biscuit with my tea at work etc, or pizza for an easy dinner one night) I feel awful about it and beat myself up for days. It's by no means a regular occurence but I just can't feel good about diet at the mo.
I know that's a bit harsh, but my brain is on a downward spiral and can't seem to think positively about this.
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driving myself mad with self loathing over weight/diet/bump size!
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Lucinda15 · 15/01/2017 11:56
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