Past couple of weeks I've been feeling(more) weird(than usual). On/off ache low down on one side, which goes around to my side and more recently, lower back. I last took a test about a week ago as I suspected a potential bun brewing... negative.
Today, my pathetic boobs(bf killed them!) seem ever so slightly less pathetic! Not sore or tender though. getting a slight 'discharge' from them when squeezed as I stopped feeding in June-they've done this since though so not too worried about that.
Now, the obvious thing to do is POAS(which I promise to do asap) but I'm genuinely frightened of it being +ve...
we have a rocky rship, already have 3 children, youngest is 2. I suffer from terrible anxiety since the death of my father and I'm not really coping too well lately. Also, all 3 of our kids have been born prematurely with terrible pregnancies(heavy bleeds throughout), PPROM with DS1(23wks, born at 29wks) and DS2(29wks,born 30wks). We have been extremely lucky as they are all fine!! I don't if we'd be as lucky with another baby, who'd inevitably be born early-maybe earlier. Doesn't bear thinking about!
I'm 36 too so time is against me. I know I'd be 'forced' to terminate if I was, as it could potentially have a very dramatic effect on our relationship and our family.
If youve read all this, thanks and well done! Any advice would be very welcome(besides POAS 😂
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Sugamommy · 07/01/2017 12:04
Oh and I haven't wanted a coffee for about 6 days now... not like me at all(unless I'm PG!)
I think you need to POAS as soon as you can. Hope you get the result you want. And, genuinely meaning this in the nicest possible way, I also think you should consider asking your GP about sterilisation. I knew not long after my second child was born that I didn't want to have any more children, and neither did my husband. I had my tubes tied at 40 and it was one of the best decisions I've ever made. No more worry on that score at all.
Best of luck. 
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