Hi, hope this is okay to post, I'm new to this site but a friend suggested it to me for support so here goes. I'm 33yrs old & just over 3 months pregnant with my long term partner of 11yrs. I have never wanted children, had a very bad up bringing with my own parents which resulted in me going in & out of care. My mum is a full blown alcoholic & I have nothing to do with my dad. I had a physcotic breakdown over 4yrs ago & I also suffer with mental health issues. When I found out I'm pregnant I felt so numb, I have met with the midwife who was lovely but again I felt so numb. I am so scared that I am going to mess this child's life up & wont love him or her. I have no maternal instinct at all & I just feel I won't be able to cope at all. My first instinct was to have an abortion & that is still in the back of my mind. I'm suffering with really bad morning sickness & have also gained weight! Struggling to hide the fact I'm pregnant & so scared. Really just don't know what is normal & what isn't. I don't have any close friends who I can talk to without feeling ashamed. I feel I should be over the moon but I'm just not. I'm sorry to go on, it feels easier to write how I'm feeling that having to actually talk face to face to someone. Would really appreciate any help, advice!
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