I'm feeling so guilty about being pregnant! My friend has had a series of miscarriages and I am very conscious of being exactly what she doesn't need. She often cancels if we are due to meet up, but when we do she doesn't speak about the miscarriages but talks about other things and asks me about my pregnancy. I feel terrible and avoid giving her updates about the baby because it seems insensitive, I also didn't tell her about the pregnancy until after the scan because it didn't seem right to be too excited. Because she doesn't really bring up the miscarriage I thought she didn't want to talk about it with me so I didn't push her.
However she has now told me that I haven't been there for her enough and that I talk too much about the pregnancy but at the same time haven't told her enough. I just don't know what to do to make it better. She even said that she has been upset after seeing me, but hadn't let on at all at the time. Obviously I don't want to upset her, but I didn't know. If she needs me then I want to be there but I don't want to be there if it's not helping. I feel like an utter failure as a friend and can't take any joy in this pregnancy, I don't post on social media about it and try not to speak to people too much for fear of upsetting anyone. I'm 8 months now and my hormonal mind is in overdrive, I just cannot figure out what to do.
I was thinking of sending an apology card to my friend simply saying that I am sorry to have let her down, that I am there for her if she needs me but also understand if she needs me to keep my distance. Is that just going to make it worse though?
Has anyone been through this?
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Feeling so guilty
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Halfpintmum · 05/08/2016 13:53
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