23 weeks, in hospital, Just need a hand to hold

[UpNorth74]

I'm in a little bit of shock ... Just need to get this out of my head ...

I'm 23 weeks today, and at work this morning found a little blood in my knickers. Having suffered a previous miscarriage before Christmas at 8 weeks, I didn't hesitate to call the midwife. She seemed calm and suggested to head to the hospital to get it checked out.
Initial verbal assessment suggested nothing serious but they wanted to examine me to be sure. 2 hours later a Dr came, examined me and told me she was shocked to discover that my waters had broken and said she could see the baby's head through my 1-2cm dilated cervix.
I was given a scan instantly, where a consultant slightly disagreed with the Dr, and said I'd had a show but my waters were still on tact, just.
He said blood tests pending they could stitch up my cervix (with a 1 in 7 chance of waters breaking during procedure).
Unfortunately, blood test showed slight infection so they're re- testing tomorrow.
In the mean time I had a fairly big bleed which ANOTHER Dr said was a ruptured placenta, and is be carefully monitored.
So I'm on hospital bed rest. I had a visit from the Special Care unit to explain to me what choices a have if I go into labour. They said 23 weeks is their borderline - if this happened yesterday they'd be having a very different conversation with me.
Basically - they asked if I'd like them to do everything they can if I go into labour, or if I'd like to cherish the time I have with my son or daughter after delivery. My gut instinct is to fight - but ultimately let baby choose. Special Care said if there is a strong heart and they can help baby breathe, then they'll do all they can with our consent. If baby is weak, we'll be given space to spend what precious time we may have.
Then they talked about disability. If I give birth this week, there us a 30% survival rate, and a 1 in 10 chance of a healthy baby. And a 9 in 10 chance of cerebral palsy and / or bowl trouble.
Ideal scenario, is that this little baby stays put, even for another few weeks, at least!
My head is swimming. Overall I'm feeling very positive that me and my partner will do everything within our power for this baby. But, baby knows best - and we'll be with them whatever they choose.

Sorry for rambling post - I'm in hospital and can't sleep.
If you have any Positive vibes going on - please hurl them my way :)

[UpNorth74]

I should also add, baby seems happy - lots of wriggles and kicks, and a good heartbeat.
:)

[JanineMelnitzGlasses]

I have no idea what to say OP other than I have everything crossed for you.

[Binkleflip]

I don't have the right words for this but I can hurl the positive vibes x

[guineapig1]

Positive vibes flying your way UpNorth. You are doing really well, just concentrate on resting and staying calm and positive and it is great that your little one is happy and wriggly.

[chippednailvarnish]

My close friend delivered at 26 weeks after a ruptured placenta, she and her daughter were fine.
Are they giving steroids for lung development?
Hang in there Baby UpNorth!

[MrsNuckyThompson]

Didn't want to read and run. Sending many positive vibes and wishing you and your precious baby all the very best.

[CultureSucksDownWords]

Best wishes to you, I hope your little one can stay put for as long as possible.

[Shirleycantbe]

Good luck, wishing the best for you xxx

[RooibosTeaAgain]

So sorry to hear your news. Hope the bed rest and tomorrow brings better news for you all.

I was in HDU on labour ward earlier this year with the risk of imminent delivery at 25, and remember the scary time there very clearly.

Positivity and calm thought being sent your way.

[GlitterTwinkleToes]

Lots and lots of positive vibes being sent your way

Good luck to all of you

[BunnyPotter]

Sending many, many positive vibes. I was on home bed rest from the about the same time (so less serious in my case). It sounds like you have a caring and respectful team around you. I hope you get some sleep, you're being well looked after.

[SilverNightFairy]

Sending all my love, hugs and BABY STAY INSIDE YOUR MUM!!! vibes to you..I'm guessing you must be feeling so very anxious and frightened at this time I hope you have someone with you at hospital. Xx

[zoemaguire]

I was in pretty much your position 5 years ago, only a bit later at just 25 weeks. My ds hung on inside for 8 days and was born after an infection at 26 weeks. We had very similar decisions to make about rescuss. He is now a healthy 5 year old, but I remember that time in hospital like it was yesterday.

Good luck and lots of staying put vibes. Remember the stats about disability etc are just that, they can't tell you how your particular child will fare. Sending all hope for a strong healthy baby. NICU doctors are miracle workers and will do all they possibly can.

[Desperateannie1]

Hurling lots of positive vibes, Up, and offering you a hand to hold.

I hope baby stays put and the nursing staff help you both.

[Strokethefurrywall]

Keeping all appendages crossed for you OP, in the face of a truly terrifying time your posts are full of positivity.
Hang in there both of you, but if baby has the strength of his mam, he'll have a fighting spirit
Ps. Don't know the sex of baby but defaulted to he because I have boys!

[UpNorth74]

Thanks so much for the lovely support - even at this crazy hour!
chippednailvarnish - that's awesome about your friend safely delivering at 26 weeks - and yep, I've been given the steroids... Ouch!
zoeamaguire - thank you, that is the kind of positive vibe I'm after! I understand they have to prepare you, but every situation is different. And bloody well done hanging on 8 days.

We can do it, baby!

[SilverNightFairy]

Hold on honey, we are thinking about you and Baby Up! I was on bed rest after early rupture of membranes. This happened at 30 weeks for me, so circumstances different. I remember the consultants coming in to speak about risks and complications, having injections to speed up lung development. This was almost twenty years ago, so imagine things have evolved. My heart goes out to you...post when you can, there are MumsNetters from around the world up night and day on here..xx

[Frillsandspills]

I have everything crossed for you OP

[julesldn]

Thinking of you and your baby and hope the outcome is a positive one for you all. Stay strong ???????? xxx

[redautumnleaves]

Keep positive and have courage. Wishing you luck and hope baby stays in as long as possible. What a hard time for you.