Hi, I'm new here but desperately hoped that with all your combined experience you might be able to help me.
I am 38 and pregnant with my first child. I have always wanted children but since I found out I was pregnant (unplanned) I have been completely beside myself. I have always been incredibly independent and I literally feel like my life is over. I can't seem to stop crying and panicking about what my future now holds for me and my baby. To make matters worse a few days before finding out I was pregnant I had decided that my relationship should probably come to an end. My partner is a very good man and very supportive - my thoughts to end the relationship were very one sided. After weeks of soul searching I and very honest conversations my partner and I have decided to take each step as it comes and remain together. I know he will make a fantastic father.
However, I am still finding everything completely overwhelming and seem consumed by fear and panic. I cannot bear the thought of anyone knowing I'm pregnant, and it feels that sometimes I'm in denial about the whole thing. My fear and panic is now so extreme that it is making me consider a termination, although I truly think that I will seriously regret this option and given my age may miss my opportunity to ever have children.
I'm so aware that so many women, a lot of my friends included, desperately want to be pregnant and I feel incredibly ashamed to be feeling like this. I want nothing more than to feel excited and telling the world, but it just doesn't feel like this. It just feels completely overwhelming.
Is this extreme fear and panic normal? Does it get better? And did anyone else who experienced this have problems around telling other people?
I'm literally at my wits end and appreciate any thoughts, stories, advice that anyone might have. Thank you.
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Pregnant and absolutely terrified, please help
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Geothecat1234 · 19/05/2015 09:50
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