Paranoia central...(2 Posts)
OK, so here is where I'm at. I'm 31 and happily married. We have two DDs aged 12 and 10 and always wanted a third baby but I would never commit to it being "the right time" so we have always been careful (Condoms). I worried about how other people would react if I'm honest (MIL can be harsh, as can my boss) so kidded myself it wasn't appropriate to TTC. Anyway, I found myself late for my period (which never happens) and when I was late by 7 days I began to suspect I was pregnant. I had period style cramping coming and going and my boobs were achy as if I was going to start my period any day. When I got to 14 days late and I was still having the boob aches (even more so, and they have almost doubled in size) I decided to take a test (actually I took two!) And I got two BFPs! According to my LMP, I am 8 weeks and 4 dyas. I don't recall any "mishaps" with contraception but know we DTD twice around the time I would have been ovulating. My husband and I are over the moon with the news and I realise that this is actually so right for us and I am so grateful. As it happens, my MIL was super excited and blabbed on FB about expecting her 5th grandchild and my boss is already talking about knitting cardigans. My problem is, I have dreamed that I miscarried and it really upset me, again, proving to me that this baby is in fact totally right for us. I guess, because we were careful and I can't recall any mishap, I am just super paranoid that I'm going to get to my first scan and be told I'm not pregnant after all and I can't get this thought out of my head. I'm bright enough to know that no contraceptive, even when used correctly is 100% effective, but I just want this so badly. I have talked to my husband who is trying to put my mind at ease but I just can't stop these thoughts. Sorry for the essay, my boobs are huge and hurt even if I turn over in bed, while I haven't been vomiting, I feel nauseous on and off most days and have completely gone off the ten black coffees a day I used to drink and instead have gone onto milky tea (very strange to me!) Am I just worrying because I have realised this means so much to me and has anybody else experienced anything similar? Thanks in advance.
Also, tired beyond normal limits ie, instead of having to almost force myself to sleep around 11pm, I'm lucky to make it to the end of Coronation Street!!! Rationality tells me to stop worrying and enjoy things but the pessimistic me tells me otherwise...
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