I'm hoping some of you can help me. I'm 35 years old and recently found out I'm pregnant (now 8 weeks). My boyfriend was really happy when we found out, but last weekend he decided that although he will be a dad if i decide to go ahead with the baby he doesn't want us to be a couple, he feels a termination might be best.
I should also say that I've suffered from panic disorder for 13 years and have had many treatments to try and combat it including medication which I've had to stop cold turkey as it could be harmful to the baby. I'm now suffering from extreme panic about whether I'm doing the right thing having the baby, withdrawal from medication (although that is beginning to ease) every day panic attacks, hormones and heartbreak. I feel like I'm going round in circles. Can I cope with being a single mum? Can I cope with the pregnancy? I feel rough all the time, sick, tired, emotional! My doctor has given me anti sickness pills and signed me off for a week as he could see I was a wreck! I also went back to see my cousellor yesterday but sadly there is no miracle cure for panic. I feel like if I could at least get my panic under control I could think more clearly and know that I'd be able to provide a good life for the baby, but right now I'm scared that my panic, fears and phobias are going to stop that happening.
My parents although keep saying it's my decision are also saying they think I'd regret a termination. They are being very supportive and said that I should worry about the practical side of things, they'll help with money, I can move back to theirs long term or short term if I want, they'll help with childcare etc. and if my ex does step up and be a dad I'll have him to help with the practical side too. I never imagined id be a single mum, especially before the baby is even born.
I want to feel happy about being pregnant but I dont. Does that make me a bad person? Does it mean I shouldn't be a mum?
Sorry for such a long post. I'm brand new on here and I just need to hear that I'm not alone.
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pregnantsingle35 · 05/11/2014 20:44
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