32 weeks pregnant. awful pregnancy

[s4m4nth4]

Hi I've had a really awful pregnancy. I had a huge panic attack at around 16 weeks and have suffered from them and anxiety ever since. I've never suffered from them beforehand. I've had really awful sickness and insomnia too. I'm just feeling a little fed up and can't wait for it all to be over now so I can start concentrating on getting back to normal. I just wondered if anyone else was in the same situation as me. I've been seen by the psychiatrist and maternal well being team and am making small progress. But im just really fed up now. My midwife says I'm measuring big too and I've got to go for a growth scan at 34 weeks. I was kind of hoping this meant I'm further along than they originally thought (selfish I know) but I'm so fed up and down about being like this

[Bakedbeansaretheworkofthedevil]

Aw, you poor thing I'm at the same stage of pregnancy as you and whilst I've not had as rough a pregnancy as you, I'm also getting to the stage of wanting it to be over, just so that I can have my life back.

The way I'm getting through it is by reminding myself that it will only last another 10 weeks max and planning lots of nice things later in the year (be it a day out or a newly released book or other small treat)

Is it your first DC?

[s4m4nth4]

Hi no I have a 5 year old too. I had to have him by emergency c section at 35 weeks. That was a bad pregnancy too what with really bad sickness. I've just had enough now I just want to be normal again. 8 weeks just seems like torture. I know it sounds silly but I wish someone could knock me unconscious for 8 weeks just so I haven't got to suffer through them :(

[HeavenK76]

I do really understand what you're going through.
I'm 33+3 today and have 6 dc do this 1 will be number 7.
Toughest pregnancy out of all, altho not mentally but deffos physically. Nausea, horribly low bp, fainting, racing heartbeat, terrible spd, ribpain, insomnia, you name it.
I honestly could have written your post about knocking me out for the rest of this pg.
I told my dh get me sleeping pills to sleep through this. (Wouldn't really of course)
But yes this is awful for another few weeks.
Just hang in there, time passes, however difficult it is.

[s4m4nth4]

I know it sounds selfish I just think haven't I been through enough already without going through 8 more weeks?! And you say that to people and they laugh like its nothing. I know there are women who've had worse pregnancy's than me. But when you're going through something you feel alone.
I've picked up alot the last couple of weeks. At weeks 28-30 I discussed terminating my pregnancy with my psychiatrist (I know that's awful but I really have been a total wreck) they wanted me to go away and think about it as he said I may regret it afterwards. I just feel like I can't go on like this for a second longer ( I know I sound like a selfish git but 2 months is a really long time when you feel so awful)

[Bakedbeansaretheworkofthedevil]

Have you considered asking for an ELCS so that you know the date? That could give you some hope, knowing that there's a definite end? (Apologies if this is insensitive and it's not something you want to consider)

[Boogles91]

Id rarther just have what you have than what im. Suffering with >.< i do understsnd as ive suffered with mental health, how you feel there is no end to it, that nobody undeerstands how you feel etc. It is hard but ive learnt to deal with it. I used to have panic attacks that sent me blue in the face until i passed out. Have you tried looking into hypnotherapy? This helped me out no end! The insomnia unfortunatley is part of anxiety...the longest ive not slept for in the past is two weeks straight. I use imagary as a way of relaxing and do breathing exercises. With each breath i tell myself over and over to just relax and i picture myself on my favoirite beach and fill my head with happy things like. My mum nd dad or start daydreaming what our lil boy is going to look like and all milestones hes going to reach :) or i go and shnuggle with our cat, je loves his shnuggly luvs :) its all about retraining your mind to think differently as anxiety fills our sub concious with wprry and evil thoughts x

[s4m4nth4]

What are ELC's?

[s4m4nth4]

I've been having hypnotherapy. It's really helped alot. I've been terrible. I've come a long way really, considering where I was. I used to have panic attacks everyday and I've slowly gotten them down to once a week although I haven't had one for a couple of weeks now just anxiety. It's nice to know I'm not the only one suffering from this. It makes you feel so alone. It just feels like there's light at the end of the tunnel but I'm running through quicksand trying to reach it (if that makes sense) x

[RAFWife12]

ELCS is Elective Caesarian Section.
I am 33 weeks now, and having horrendous time! I don't so much have mental health issues like you have, more physical. I have been very anxious, and emotional but this is more due to DH being away.
My issues have been heartburn, insommnia, anaemia, spd, and now borderline pre-eclampsia. I so want this to be over! I do not want another 7 weeks.
I seriously cant see why people do this more than once!

[s4m4nth4]

Lol I only decided to try for this one cuz I was told no two pregnancies are the same. I was hoping to be blooming with this one. No such luck I won't ever have another one. I've also had chronic heartburn and insomnia it's awful isn't it?
I've also been having really bad period pain the last two nights with backache. And I'm kind of (selfishly) hoping I'm nearing the end sooner Than expected as I really can't take anymore