Hi Everyone,
I have never posted here or any any similar sites before. this is all very new to me. I just found out that I'm pregnant the other day. My husband and I are both 38, and we don't have any children. We said that we'd try to get pregnant, but didn't go out of our way to become pregnant. We just said that if it happens that would be great, but if it doesn't we will deal with that too. Well, I took a pregnancy test Sunday morning and it was positive. I was completely terrified and started to cry, but not because I was happy, but more because I was upset, confused and completely unsure. it's one thing to want to have kids in theory, but the reality of being pregnant comes with unexpeted emotions. I thought I would be so happy and excited, but I'm not at all. the opposite...Now I'm not even sure that I want to have a baby. I keep thinking about how my life will change forever and that I'll completely lose my freedom to do what I want when I want. I'm sorry if this sounds selfish, but I'm being honest about my feelings. I read other posts where people have very similar feelings so I'm sure it's not abnormal. I also read that many people felt this way, and then felt overjoyed when the baby was born. I hope my feelings will change. None of my friends have kids, and I'll be the first one, and I don't feel that they can relate to what I am going through because of this. Luckily, my husband is very supportive. he is thrilled about the pregnancy. I wish I was too, but I'm not feeling that way. I worry that I'll feel this way my entire pregnancy, and that I will not feel like I'm able to bond with my baby. Sometime I feel so low, that I almost wish this was a false alarm or like I would be so relieved if I found out that I really wasn't pregnant. I just wanted to hear from other people who've been through this before. Is there anything I can do to start getting more excited about the pregnancy and having a child? Thank you for taking the time read this and for any words or insights you can share.
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First pregnancy at 38, and completely unsure I want it
NewMomRYM · 31/01/2012 18:43
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