scared of pregnancy

[namechange2011]

I've wanted to get pregnant for ages, I had an abortion 2 years ago that honestly I really wish I hadn't agreed to and felt pressured into. I got pregnant last year but lost my baby at 16 weeks. I spent all this time wanting to get pregnant but now I find myself terrified by the idea. I'm worried more because I thinki might be pregnant this month but it's too early to tell.
My family don't like my partner to the extent that they don't know we're still togther, and the sad thing is I'm 28. My partner is not going to belive I managed to accidentally get pregnant 3 times in 3 years. I'm terrified that things will go wrong again, that labour will be unbearable and that once the child is born I'll never be able to look after it or I'll have loads of problems with work/childcare.
Are these normal worries or am I completely out of my mind? Thanks for letting me rant for a bit.

[LoopyLoopsOfSparklyFairyLights]

Perfectly normal in my experience.

I think you need to get some counselling though tbh. Also, you might want to think about whether or not these really were accidents, and discuss with your partner.

Good luck. :)