I lost my first baby in March when I was 19 weeks. Obviously it was devastating and the hardest thing I've ever had to try to get over. If I hadn't had my amazing DH I honestly don't know what I'd have done. Much to our surprise I got pregnant again really quickly (probably too quickly in hindsight but no regrets, this baby is a gift) and I'm currently 32 weeks.
When I think about the birth all I feel is terror that something's going to go wrong and the baby's going to die. I know that the chances of things going wrong are tiny compared to the chances of things going right, but I just can't get it out of my head. This morning I woke up at 4.30 and just literally worried for 2.5 hours until my alarm went off.
My pregnancy has been uncomplicated and all the scans have been fine but I remember hearing a couple on the Jeremy Vine show talking about their stillbirth - it was absolutely heartbreaking and they'd had a very normal pregnancy.
If something went wrong I honestly don't think I'd ever get over it. I haven't really mentioned this to my DH as I don't want him to worry but I desperately need someone to talk some sense into me.
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Get updates on how your baby develops, your body changes, and what you can expect during each week of your pregnancy by signing up to the Mumsnet Pregnancy Newsletters.
Pregnancy
I need you all to talk some sense into me
4 replies
Margie32 · 09/11/2010 16:25
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.