I’ve not felt this rush of love for my daughter and she’s 18 days old now. I cry everyday. I can just look at her and feel this overwhelming guilt that I’ve brought her into this world, but don’t want anything to do with her.
I feel as though I can’t be around her, but on the other hand I always need to be near her in case something happens. The max time I’ve spent away from her so far is about 2hrs to do food shopping, and again I felt guilty for doing that.
I’m so anxious about going out in case something goes wrong - I can’t feed her properly or I can’t change her etc. I’m so fed up at looking at the same 4 walls at home. She won’t settle in the bedroom with my partner and I at night so we take it in shifts to stay in the living room with her and even then she doesn’t settle too well.
I’m so tired yet can’t rest during the day because I need to be doing something as a distraction from what I’m feeling.
I try to interact with her but I just don’t have the energy.
I’m waiting to hear from my doctor as to whether I want to try talking therapy or some sort of medication. I honestly don’t know what will help.
I feel like I’m in a constant fight or flight mode and I’m worried about how much distress I’m causing my partner who wants to help me.
Does anyone else feel like this? Did anyone feel like this and if so how did you change that?
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Anxiety, guilt and so many tears
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JLou86 · 05/03/2020 09:12
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