I can’t cope anymore. DD1 is almost 3 and DD2 is one almost. I’m finding it so hard. Dd1 has only just started a preschool for 2 mornings a week. I’ve had both of them just me for almost a year. I find dd2 such a hard baby. She sleeps badly and seems to be like a toddler already. She whinges at me if I don’t give her something quickly enough. dd1 is almost 3 but her speech is poor (I’ve had a referral to child development) so it’s impossible to say have a conversation with dd1. Dd1 is so needy - I feel I can barely look after the baby as dd1 constantly wants holding or something. I feel like I’ve not bonded with dd2. I was waiting for it to happen but she’s almost 1 now. I have feelings of love for her but I feel so irritated by her sometimes.
I’m so tired and I barely get a break - I get a couple of hours a week to myself. My husband is supportive but out of the house 12 hours a day.
I don’t know if what I feel is just cos everything is shit Or if I do have PND. I get out of the house everyday and none of my friends would think anything was wrong.
I’ve not had a chunk of more than 3 hours sleep in over a year.
I quit my job when had dd2 as hours and commute would have meant they’d be i. Nursery for so long every day. I’m
Happy that they’re not in nursery but I feel so lost.
I’m embarrassed to go to the gp. I feel a failure for not coping. I’m so ashamed. I have had cbt before. I don’t want it again. I think I would have to take pills and I’m so scared of this.
I wish I could get this situation to end but I’m so trapped. I feel so sorry for dd2. She deserves better than a mum like this.
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Theprimroseswereover · 20/11/2019 11:07
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