Really can't be bothered

[DeadDoorpost]

I know it's the PND talking but I just CBA to clear up the pile of clean nappies DS has just pulled out of the bag. He's been kicking me while reading his books, getting in the way of DD(8 weeks) sleeping by getting in her face while I'm trying to feed her and her her to settle, and he's refusing to nap during the day.
I also pushed through my dislike of going to baby groups and went to one today for DS benefit, hoping itd help him but he's just come back tired, grumpy, and he pushed a kid over purely because he was jealous and didn't want to share. I did make him apologise, but I just feel like I'm trying so hard and yet he's not listening to me.

I'm half expecting DH to come home and be annoyed at the mess everywhere but honestly, he'll probably just get on and do the washing up and help tidy up. Which makes me feel even worse because I don't seem to be able to do it myself with the 2 kids around.

I miss being independent, I miss not having to revolve around children and being able to do whatever I want to do, and I miss not having a 2 yr old kicking my side because hes stretching his legs and finds it amusing to kick me.

[sewinginscotland]

I've only got one, but 8 weeks is tough! You will get to do things that aren't child related eventually. Leave the mess, it's not bothering anyone... maybe go out to the park if you can be bothered? It's a lovely day here, I don't know about where you are.

[Shookethtothecore]

I have 3 children, dc3 is 8 weeks old. The jump from my first child to second child absolutely floored me. I was so overwhelmed and so guilty and sad and it was by far the hardest thing I have ever done. But it got better, then after better, it got good.
Break your day into small chunks. I used to start with 5 mins. So like, in this 5 mins I will clean the bottles. Small achievable tasks. 5 mins reading with ds, then stretch it out to 10 mins, 20 mins- so in the next 10 mins I will do the bottles, make ds lunch. (I also found plating up cold picnic plates for ds in the morning when dh was home to give to him later when he was hungry and I had less hands) when you break your days down into very small periods of time it seems more manageable and every small victory is a boost to how your feeling.
It does get so much easier and now with my third I am much calmer and enjoying it as I know, it gets easier and this hard part will be over soon.