I don't know what to do

[TummysMummy]

ere do I start..

So I have a 17weeks old daughter and I feel like I may be getting slightly depressed I do not want to label it as PND as of yet because I'm not sure..

I keep crying and majority of the time I actually don't know what I am crying for.. mostly when it involves my partner who hasn't exactly made it easy for me before and after birth. I had a horrible pregnancy then weeks after the birth of my DD he started of sleeping downstairs from when I came out of hospital he said apparently "to give me my space with her" however this has been ongoing for long up to now me and him always clash I feel like he really dislikes me and can't stand to be around me, sometimes I just want a hug but can't Evan receive that from him, he says horrible things to me never makes me feel good about myself but happily entertains other females to the point now where I honestly feel like he is with another woman .. however that's not all we were living together in his mums house and he would be out and i would be in the house having to cook, clean and look after my DD in the last month when he has been at home he sits and plays game when I ask him to help with my DD he acts like he doesn't want to or the game and his phone is more important, and on top on that he makes me feel like I don't do nothing and I'm lazy, no ambition etc to the point where I'm actually job hunting now because he makes me feel so low about myself and that I should be doing something, and at this point in my life I'm beginning to feel lost confuse upset my DD currently teething also and now has a bit of a cold and I just feel like I'm not doing a good enough job and need a helping hand In the last week I've gone back to my mums but I was around him today because it was his birthday bought him a few things and 2 cakes tried to make it as special as I could and at the end of it didn't Evan get a hug he honestly makes me feel like crap, I'm forever down and upset and not sure of myself to the point I'm feeling a bit depressed, and we've gone through these 4 months with him saying relationship isn't it important it doesn't matter etc which of course my DD is the priority however I can't help how I feel about that and him and it's upsetting all I want is to keep the family together

[tmc14]

Hi,
I didn’t want to leave you with no replies. I don’t have any advice, but hopefully bumping this will bring along someone more wise.
Have you spoken with the health visitor or your gp about any of this? Hope you’re being looked after by your Mum xxx