I really feel embarrassed writing this but I don't know where else to turn. Please don't judge me. My beautiful baby girl is 9 weeks old & I feel like I'm loosing my mind. I've always suffered with anxiety which flairs up from time to time but I've never been to the Drs or anything prior to this as I've always been embarrassed. ATM the anxiety and overthinking is crippling & I am experiencing a horrible overwhelming feeling of panic daily. When I had ds who is 7 I wasn't like this at all but with dd I feel I'm on the verge of loosing my mind & it's terrifying me.
I know it's irrational but I keep changing my mind about her name, I had a name I wanted to call her all through my pregnancy but DH didn't like it & we battled over her name for the first 3 weeks. At 4 weeks I had a nasty case of mastitis & the antibiotics made me feel really strange & depressed. At this point we rushed into naming & registering her something completely different which I immediately regretted. I went back to the registry office after 20 mins & the lady gave me paperwork to change her name. My DH was really disappointed & annoyed, I tried to get used to her name but I've pretty much cried non-stop since. The day after registering I broke down to the dr who asked me lots of PND questions & prescribed me Valium 2mg. He also said to go back in a week & told my HV to have a chat with me. When she did I lied & said I felt better for fear of being judged. With her name I had to tell people I wasn't sure if we were keeping her at the one we registered her at. The tricky part is I don't think she suits any of the names I like, I keep looking at her thinking who are you? I changed her name unofficially ten days ago but after a day thought that was wrong too & told my husband I wanted to keep the name we registered her at. Now I'm scared to tell him I'm still not fussed on it & I can't get used to it. He's really frustrated & embarrassed at the whole situation already. I feel like I've let everyone down & I'm a useless mother who can't even stick to a name for her baby.
I think there's more to it than the name, I'm extremely emotional & feel like I need to speak to people all the time or my thoughts take over me & I can't breathe.
Sorry for the long post, has anybody been through anything similar? I've been desperate for another baby for 7 years & I feel like I'm taking all the joy out of the early days for myself. Please help. X
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Overthinking & anxiety at 9 weeks pp please help
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MammaTimes2 · 26/10/2016 09:22
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