After complaining yesterday about my girls they all slept really well last night! The older two were wiped out by 6:30pm and were asking to go to bed - so I called my Dad round to hold Faith for half an hour while I put the girls to bed and read a story. Those two slept til just before 7am!!! The only trouble I had was Faith had a dreadful evening, she wouldn't settle and was grouchy one minute, happy the next and on and off the boob all evening. I gave in at 9:30pm and gave her the bottle an hour early. She fell asleep at 10pm so I put her in her cot and went to bed myself. She woke up at 5am . I brought her into my bed to feed and we both fell asleep again til my alarm went off at 6:30am, at which point I sneaked out of bed, got myself and DDs 1 + 2 up and dressed, had breakfast, got everyone ready for school/nursery and had to wake Faith at 8:10am to give her a feed before the school run!
DH has been away to work - nights this week, and got back at 8:30 this morning, just in time to help me with the school run, when we got back and Faith still asleep, he sent me upstairs to have a nice relaxing bath while he sat with Faith. Now he's gone to bed, Faith is still asleep and I can have some time on MN!!
After a rotten few days I do feel a lot better after a good sleep!
I've been very aware of a few signs of PND (had it last time with DD2) over the last couple of weeks. It's hitting at around the same time too. It worries me sick because it was severe last time and nearly ended up in hospital. So I've told DH, he's very supportive, but does want me to get down the docs and get on the ADs ASAP.... which I really don't want to unless absolutley have to. Although I have agreed to go if I get another nightmare - was one of the signs last time, I get horrific nightmares that terrify me, DH had to come home from work to calm me down and check the kids as I couldn't move with fear, was convinced someone had been in the house and murdered my children. He said I sounded so panicked he thought it was true and was worried what he'd find when he got home.
I sooo don't want to end up like that again, I've felt fine for so long and really thought things were going well this time . I've only told DH, I don't want to worry my Dad again.I felt I could tell you ladies, my cyber mummy friends as I know you'll understand.
Anyway, I won't dwell on it because today is a better day.
Going to have Faith weighed on Friday, bet she's over 10lb now. She will be 10weeks old tomorrow.
Must be off now, gosh doesn't the time fly? Have to go get DD2 from nursery. Her tummy is a lot better, no more upset since yesterday afternoon - but am keeping her food pretty bland til I know for sure!! .
Hello to everyone - hope I'll be back later for a proper chat not just a moan! Sorry!
