Oh blueberry, i do hope dd2's back to her normal lovely self v soon
i posted early hours a long reply but itouch seems to have deleted it!
thanks all for your comments. the ridiculous thing is that i feel more in control of house, dcs now than i ever have. albs, yes, you're right, i do pretend all is fine when its not but this isn't actually one of those times..honest! i'm really chuffed with how much more sorted the house is now (which makes dh's stepford wife display even funnier). Illness is undiagnosed! thought originally it was mastitius, felt awful all of friday, feverish, sensitive skin, dizzy etc which is why he had to take the day off work. no way i could have coped on my own. woke up saturday feeling well enough to drive so went to one of my best friend's hen dos. it was at her parent's house so i knew if i wanted to i could spend the whole time in bed but there was no way i wasn't going at all (unless really ill obv!). dh picked an argument before i left so i drove off in tears, ds in tears etc was all horrible. i just took dd with me and it was lovely spending lots of time with her on her own! anyhow, got lots of text from dh during the night telling me how ill ds was etc. i could have come straight home at midnight but i knew there was nothing more i could do for him and he had his parents to help him so i stayed where i was. he reckoned ds alot better sunday morning so i didn't get back til 4ish. they were just getting back from a long walk/lunch etc. ds blatantly not well at all and i was cross they'd had him out in the cold but didn't say anything (what's done was done and all that). So (trying to cut a long story short!), dh really 'off' with me, barely talking etc so obviously angry with me about something. he came upstairs when i was getting dd ready for bed and told me that if we were going to talk that now was the only time he had until this time next week to sort things out. last night i was tired, feeling illl, worried about ds and really really didn't want to have a long drawn out argument with him so i told him to put me in his calendar for next week. it was whilst i was refusing to talk to him about what was wrong that he told me i should book an appt to docs because of pnd. i will do the test now (thanks Merlion) but i will be amazed if i have got it. i'd better go now, pil needing attention (they're staying with us but leaving today. they've been really good despite dh snapping at them most of the time ) Thanks again, it helps being able to talk about things without being judged. sorry if this is a ramble array of words and doesn't make sense. i was up most the night with ds (typically dd only woke once!) and still feeling pretty rough myself. hey ho, if nothing else, pil have seen this morning that i'm coping absolutely fine with both dcs (i'm willing to bet that dh has asked them their opinion!). and on that note, i'd realy better get off the computer