Trust in the Universe?

[Papayalady]

Hi all
Sooo, I'm in a challenging situation and I'm trying to plug back into my spiritual side to help me through. I'm recovering from a mental breakdown however in the summer, my employer suddenly decided they could no longer support me at work, so I lost my job.
After a stressful battle at work involving a union, I negotiated my way out of the company. The payout was reasonable but not substantial and therefore will run out in the next couple of months. I've also got some serious family issues going on at the moment.
As a result, I find myself still unwell, with no partner to help pay the mortgage/ bills and I need to go freelance as I don't trust employers at all, and the pressure to look for a new job would be way too much for me at the moment.
I've got to the point where I can't worry otherwise my body and mind will react badly and I relapse! It's tough.
I'm looking at my options to bring in money, so don't really need practical advice - it's more the spiritual aspect. I meditate daily, but I'm having trouble trusting life/ the universe to bring something good my way. My last few years have been dominated by family, health, employment, relationship trauma, so you can't blame me for not trusting that my future will be better. I'm in my mid-40s so it's part of life, but it's been incredibly hard-going.
Has anyone been in a precarious situation but just handed over their worries to something greater than them? I'd be interested in reading other peoples' experiences. I guess I just need encouragement or reassurance, as it was anxiety that caused my health issues!

[noego]

There is a Taoist saying.........

If you live in the past you will be depressed
If you live in the future you will be anxious (no-one can predict the future)
If you live in the now you will find peace.

If you try to control life, life will control you.

IME there is always a reason these things happen in life. WE do not know what that reason is, but for sure something is happening.

Its like something decided that my life was crap and decided to change it for me. It was very distressing at the time and I didn't know WTF was happening but in retrospect...........

I went through a lot of crap a while ago.......Deaths, illness, relationship breakup, redundancy. It's all turned out okay. I had nothing to do with it. I hadn't planned it. Things just happened.

Made redundant - started own business.
Relationship break up - discovered I was with a narcissist and cheat
Sold House -Downsized - Financially Independent
Single life - love it.
Old friendships gone - have new friendship groups now
A completely different life, opposite of everything that went before.

And I never planned any of it. It all just happened.

My tip, stay in the now. Do things now. Don't hesitate, Go with the flow.