Over the last year, I feel I have begun to find a little seed of faith. As a child I was fascinated with religious studies but throughout my twenties, I was pretty much an atheist.
I can't say exactly what has changed and why, but I find myself more and more thinking about God, life, death and what kind of life I want to lead going forward.
I am very much out of my depth currently however and have no idea where to start. I don't feel ready to visit churches or discuss my feelings with family (atheists) so I feel books and perhaps something online would be a good enough starting point?
Hi OP, that's great that you have started exploring faith for yourself. I'd recommend Re:Jesus as a great place to start. It's got online study tools, individual stories, tips on developing your spirituality and lots more! It's really accessible and designed for people like you who are exploring.
Would def recommend alpha but would strongly suggest attending in person. Most churches will run one and actually having the discussion as well as the teaching is really helpful. Usually the people running them are pretty nice too and there’s no pressure to become a regular attender afterwards.
Be careful when choosing online courses and materials - there are many different types of Christianity, and you might not necessarily agree with them, and they might not point out that there are other groups which disagree.
The re:jesus website is a good one, as I recall. Alpha is a decent course (be aware that the 'speaking in tongues' that they practice is one of those disputed areas). Other courses are the Emmaus/Pilgrim courses, and Christianity Explored. If you don't fancy joining a group at a church just yet, you can buy the books used on those courses, if you prefer.
In terms of books, I always found John Stott helpful - his 'Basic Christianity' might be useful for you. Jaytee38's suggestion about an online group is a good one, either hers or another one. Less scary than face to face!
OP I was in your situation 3 years ago. I posted tons of questions on this board and lots of people patiently answered them. Keep the same username for a while so we get to know you and go ahead, as MotherMarysStylist says we'll help.
I was in your situation 6 years ago. I can recommend being brave and going to a Church service or even trying a few different ones to find out which church you like best. That is what I did. Most churches are very welcoming. The minister of my local Church came to my home once a week to help me learn about Christianity. I was baptized when I was in my late 30's and became a member of the church. I moved house a few years ago and felt scared to try new churches but was brave at Christmas time and ventured into my local Church on Christmas eve and it was very nice. The minister has visited me at home and I am getting to know people.