How long did it take you to come to terms with your "gift"?

[Flamesparrow]

From the first time I picked up tarot cards I have been spot on with them. The cards I had weren't quite right (never connected with them properly), but they still did the trick.

Walked past the same shop (purely accidentally) 3 times when I was shopping in London, glanced in the window and in the middle of the display was a pack of tarot cards... went into the shop and was going to browse at crystals, but when I got there the same cards had been left out of place - in with the crystals.

So I bought em.

That was about 2 weeks ago, hadn't got round to using them.

Tonight was in a "normal" bookshop, and in the middle of a fairly average display was this same pack of cards (dunno which ones they are, how common etc), but it made me go home and use them.

Again, have scared myself with accuracy and want to hide them away for a few months (If they were a book they'd be in the freezer )

Sooo... how long does this freaked out feeling last? Do you ever "get used to it"?

[expatinscotland]

I'm still dealing with it.

[Flamesparrow]

Thought you might say something like that

[fransmom]

and me. i do find it easier to cope with some times more than others, it sounds like it might help you to contact a few local spiritualist churches, find one where you will feel comfy (you will know) and sit in their development circles and learn how to control your gift. i find reading books by doreen virtue very helpful - although i have been reading them chapters at a time and not lettig info sink in i have been, well, not quite told off for it by my guides but admonished a little

let us know how you get on

[expatinscotland]

I am still very freaked by those who seem to only want to 'visit' me at night. In the middle of the night.

At 3AM.

Particularly when I then turn the light on to go back to sleep and find it turned off in the morning.

I am not amused by this.

[fransmom]

i soon learnt to tell them to bugger off i'm going to sleep in a teachery kind of voice.

have you thought they may just have been turning your light off for you when you were asleep and therefore no longer needed it? that's the impression i got expat

[Flamesparrow]

Did you read my thing a few weeks ago about being pulled across the bed? A boy called Daniel (I think it was Daniel) wanted me for something and decided to get my attention by yanking me across the bed.

I posted on here but was told sleep paralysis (which it wasn't, I have that a lot).

I ended up yelling silently in my best mummy voice "Get back to bed!"

[melsy]

Its a new thing for me , although been into this side of life for 12 yrs or more. I find I get a lot scrambled still , but some spot on. Its the negative info I dont know what to do with thats bothersome.

[expatinscotland]

There's been a woman, a little girl and a boy.

None frightening. Just don't like being startled at night like that.

[Flamesparrow]

Its just plain rude isn't it Expat

Scrambled occasionally would make things slightly easier I think...

How do people deal with negatives (mine haven't been all fluffy, but nothing like death etc)? Surely you can't lie, and you can't cough and say "no, nothing to see here"...

[fransmom]

i thought it sounded familiar flamey has that happened again? i too would've gone straight back to bed with that kind of voice been shouted at me!


melsy, the best thing to do when you're working / doing readings is not to interpret the info you're given yourself as that will distort the original message and when your ego gets involved part of the message may be misinterpreted or the most important part (which may only mean something for the person you're working for) may be completely lost and the whole message then may end up as being meaningless. i have had problems with my ego interfering and sometimes it can be hard not to interpret but the best thing i found was just to give the info straight out - even if it sounds completely odd to you - and let the other person interpret it.
does that make sense? x

[Flamesparrow]

Its not happened since.. think I scared him

No-one wakes me in the night

[fransmom]

yes mom

[melsy]

even if it means something nasty fransmom? It is hard to separate yuor own voice and those of others coming in, mainly guides for now. I dont have mediumship I dont think.

Im not ready for doing readings at this stage, dont feel thats my path right now. Im not sure yet what direction it will go in yet.
At the moment I seem to be creating a HUGE amount of serendipity for many people around me.

[fransmom]

then if you do you ask for the protection of all the archangels (especially michael) and say very firmly "i invoke the goldenw hite light of protection around me and i wish for archangel michael to take this unwelcome presence away from me now. so be it" (or amen or something you are comfy with)

you may not feel anything but as long as you believe in it, it will happen. it works because i invoke it in situations where i do not feel safe.

[Rosylily]

I once jokingly read someones tea leaves...I saw a higgledy piggledy house precariously balanced like badly stacked boxes and a cat with only one ear... and the guy then said he was moving house and his lady friend was deaf in one ear

Anyway I shan't be developing my 'gift' in that direction...I have enough trouble with my children waking me in the night never mind anyone else

[SaintGeorge]

Well I'm 40 flamey and I don't get freaked any more. Still not entirely used to it though.

My problem is that any sense of control I have goes out of the window when something emotional is going on in my life (like when mum was ill for example), whilst at the same time things come through stronger and I find it more difficult to handle IYSWIM. Just when I need the control, it's gone.

[MarsLady]

[SaintGeorge]

You really think I believe you when you say the chocs are still there? With all the kids you have in your house? (skipping lightly over the fact that Marsy may have consumed them herself)

[Flamesparrow]

Nah, it wouldn't be Marsy... the pixies will have had em!

Now things have settled slightly more since my grandad's funeral the empath thing seems to have eased off a bit - probably where neither of them are having as strong feelings as they were those two weeks. Felt the air all close up in the car with my mum last weekend and she suddenly burst into tears... she had been fine and laughing the minute before - it suddenly brought back how strong the feeling is when it comes.

With the cards last night, if I hadn't dropped them (by accident - cards all across the floor) and shuffled them a hell of a lot I would have thought that they hadn't been shuffled properly and were still in order from when they came out of the box... all the same card coming out in decending numbers ! I know most of the time I get similar ones (obv to do with what is going on), but not exactly in order like that.

So I have a good 14 years of being freaked out before I settle in StG?

I need to go back to church - my big problem is though that rl people scare me and the idea of development circle is very very daunting.

[loopylou6]

flame, do u have spirtal shop in your area? if so normally the people who run that will be able to help u to develop and control your gift