Hello everyone. I'm born again and I have played with fire and got burnt. I dated a guy from our church choir in our church and now I'm pregnant. The way he handled the situation of the pregnancy has consumed a lot of hatred in me for him. He denied and blocked me and moved fom were he was staying. I hate him so much the hatred is so intense that I feel joy when I think of harming him in a painful way he will never forget. I posted about this on relationships and as posters were answering I noticed that I don't know if hating him is as wrong as I thought. God destroyed pple w fire and water because they did something wrong, was he jus angry or he hated them? Is there a difference between anger and hatred. If God could get angry to destroy then I'm allowed to feel hatred for this man too right. Anger leads to hate right?. Jesus also got angry and turned the gamblers tables upside down. Is God the only one allowed to get angry enough to hate and destroy. I know its wrong to hate I wana stop really but I really hate him and its affecting me spritually. I dream of inflicting pain on him I want revenge.
What's worse I told my pastor and he jus called us and spoke to us but it really didn't make much difference his life is still going on perfectly and he still sings for the church as if he ddnt do anyrhing wrong. I thought the church is supposed to give some sort od discipline of some sort. I'm also wrong I shouldn't have been having sex in the 1st place but I think he should also know he is wrong. As a christian I really don't think people who do that should continue to sing in the church choir there should be some sort of descipline right? I can't go to church some days because I know he will be singing and pple clapping for him and asking God to bless him yet he has done this to me. Sometimes I want to expose him just to destroy him even if it will destroy me on the way.
I love God and I believe in him so much but I don't understand why he is leaving me to deal with the embarasment and shame all alone and he is still there probably luring another girl with his christianity act. If anger is allowed since even God got angry then can I hate him as it makes me ffel good to live my life hating him ?? How do I deal with this
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i love God but i feel hatred towards a man. God got angry and destroyed am i allowed to get angry as a christian????
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buthow · 07/07/2013 14:42
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