So I’m a mum , eldest is 23 and now has her own child .
I was adopted when I was young and grew up with family who abused me.
I’ve been diagnosed with Complex PTSD for various traumas 1 being domestic violence many years ago.
I always strived to be the opposite towards my children and with my eldest wrapped her in cotton wool, I mean...who in their right mind would take advice from abusers?
As we all know we don’t get a manual to bring children up.
My “crime” was being in a violent relationship, (wasn’t to begin with) I was weak, young, alone and vulnerable and didn’t have anyone to turn to, this had an impact on my child, now as an adult they have an attachment disorder , I feel guilty as hell and have done for years, I have always tried to support them where I’m able to (I’m not invincible) .
The behaviour is awful, I’m abused mentally “your dad should have killed you instead of your mum” “you’re not fit to be a mother” this has been going on years, constantly picks fault with me for everything.
They know they have an issue, I’ve said I would support them going for help/counselling but it’s all talk and the years keep rolling by.
Last year at Christmas I spent £250 on the grandchild and £200 on them, told their sibling I didn’t buy them a lot 😢 I work my socks off working 2 jobs and I always go above and beyond at Christmas.
They all know when you have children less money is spent on them.
I was mortified when I found out what they had said and felt really hurt, they cause arguments all the time and we won’t speak for months unless Christmas or birthdays and then I hear from them.
This year I was told I could see my grandchild on Boxing Day, now I can’t, do I take said presents round for all of them and be the bigger person or do I hold onto them and be skated on social media?
I’ve spent years pulling my hair out, feeling guilty and beating myself up.
They’re siblings don’t want anything to do with them so Christmas this year is really hard because all I want is for my WHOLE family to be spending time together laughing and being happy but feels it’s just too much to ask. Missing my grandchild too who I witnessed coming into the world 😢
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Alwaysinthewrong · 23/12/2019 22:07
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