The loss of my son

[Soxy2154]

So it's been 4 weeks since my son passed away suddenly, 4 long miserable weeks.
I miss he's smile, I miss he's voice I even miss he's smell, just one more chance to wrap my arms around him, hug him tight and tell him how much I love him is all I want.
My Mum said yesterday I need to sort myself out and start re building my life??? how the fuck do I do that??? I can't let my self feel any happiness, if I do that I feel guilt ridden.
My day is consumed by sorrow, desperation, guilt, anxiety, dread & despair.
I don't know what the answer is I just needed to write down my feelings and put them out there.
I don't want to burden people with my problems I am just a desperate Mum without her little man

[cheeserolls]

Hi, I am so sorry for your loss. Four weeks is nothing at all, it's seems very unreasonable of your mother to pressure you... Has she been supportive to now?

This might be better moved to bereavement topic also ?

[Samcro]

i am so sorry for your loss. be kind to yourself x

[MrsMozartMkII]

I am so sorry.

As cheeserolls says, four weeks is nothing. Give yourself time and be kind to yourself.

If you have a happy moment then allow it, your son wouldn't have wanted you to miss out on any happiness.

[Saucery]

I am sorry for the loss of your son. Your Mum May mean well, but she is wrong, 4 weeks is nothing. Do you have other people to talk to about him? Do you think the GP could help with some medication to get you through this phase?

[MrsAJ27]

So sorry for your loss, do what you need to do, to get through each day

[Disfordarkchocolate]

Do you want to tell us about him?

I love the smell of my children, I think its what I would miss the most. It makes me feel close to them. Four weeks is barely enough time to even feel you can breathe after that sort of loss.

[Candace19]

Oh @Soxy2154 I am so sorry that he's gone too soon. Let the grief consume you for now. Hold tight to the memories. Come here & let it out. Big love xxx