Who is this state of a woman? Oh my God - it's me!

[OdyMandrell]

Has anyone else felt so utterly disappointed and ashamed with yourself, that you wish you could scrap everyone's memory (including your own) of how you've conducted yourself recently and start all over again being the serene, calm, authoritative mother you always hoped you could be?
I've started as if I've done something really terrible - I haven't. It's just that I have recently been shrieking at my DCs in a kind of pleading tone - I can hear myself and I don't recognise my own voice! I was so worn out from yesterday's battles that I completely overslept this morning resulting in a hideous rush not to be really late for school. I feel I must have appeared to be in a completely hysterical flap to all those who were unlucky enough to cross my path. I'm overweight and spotty because I eat and pick at my skin when I am stressed. I don't feel like myself (whoever that is these days...) at all. I'm sorry to go on but does anyone of this seem familiar with any of you? Or am I just a total wreck? I'm not sure anymore.

[ChablisorSancerre]

I often sometimes feel completely inadequate, incompetent and a complete failure at everything.

With me it's underweight and wrinkly!

And I have resolved this week that I am going to change what I can about my life that I don't like. Unfortunately that does not mean having the DC's adopted

How old are your DC's and what is it about them that's driving you mad?

[OdyMandrell]

DCs are 5y, 3y and 12m. The main things driving me mad at the moment are 1) DC2 being obsessed and jealous with my 1y old meaning he spends a lot of the time shrieking and being rough and 2) DC2 and DC1 constantly bickering and arguing and trying to talk/shout above each other to be heard.