Hi all.
Well, we are currently ttc no5, we were very excited, looking forward to a lovely big family, hopefully going on to have number 6. Oh heavenly bliss. And then on Sunday something horrible happened and now i am not so sure.
I am not a good enough parent to parent 5 children as it appears i am so crap that i cannot look after the ones i have.
On Sunday I lost our 3 (nearly 4) year old in a packed out place for 25 minutes. I have never been so absolutely terrified, and it didnt even happen in a moment of crap parenting, but during an everyday type situation.
I am gutted, and i will now bore you with the details, feel free to have a doze .
On Sunday we went to our local park for a Sprinwatch event, with dh, 4dcs and dhs cousin who is visiting us for 10 days.
We got there around lunch time and it was packed, so dcs and i got some crepes with yummy fillings and sat down to eat before going to see birds of prey. Dh joined the enormous line line for pakoras.
We finished, stood up and started walking off to look at some of the stalls. I turned to dh and said 'whilst you are eating i will take dcs over here to have a look around' turned around and dd was gone, nowhere to be seen. dh and i check with each other, and look around as we think she couldnet have gone far, but she is gone, completely out of sight.
dh cousin stays put with the kdis and dh and i run in seperate directions aroiund Stanmer Park, srrounded by woodland. DD nowhere. Dh carries on running, i alerta park rangers, and it is all out panic for 25 minutes.
She finally finds her own way back, because she is thirsty. nobody could find her, she says she didnt hear us call and has no real exolanation as to what happened.
I wish she was scared and crying, but she was fine - now i feel as though it could happen again.
Dh blames me and says we really shoulnt have dc5 if i cant look afters our dcs when out.
I feel awful, but i am sure i took no crazy risks or anything. So confused and i dont know what to think or do, but i feel like the worst parent ever (and dh seems to agree).
Can i cope with 5? Am i just too too crap for children?
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OK we are ttc, butt something happened at the weekend and the doubt has set in - help!!!
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tummytickler · 10/06/2009 21:21
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